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léna's avatar

i would read an entire book written like this. my yearly vice is an unrequited crush 😌

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JESYCU's avatar

the things i would do for an unrequited crush... i would sell the clothes off my back

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ghost's avatar

want one of mine?

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Hysterical Teenager's avatar

Hilarious, poignant. A bit of virtue signaling that u threw ur butt in the trash can and didn’t just flick it on the street like an Neanderthal but I’ll let it pass

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crystalopalite's avatar

I constantly say: ‘God, I need a smoke’ knowing damn well if I tried I would hate it lol

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JESYCU's avatar

something 2 take the edge off...

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naa-lamle's avatar

the other week, at my big age of 28, it randomly dawned on me that absolutely nothing was stopping me from going to buy a pack of ciggies. I filed away the realisation for later - for when I felt like I reaaalllly needed a drag. but erm, this post sobered me up good.

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JESYCU's avatar

the day i buy an entire PACK of cigarettes is the day my loved ones should do a wellness check on me

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Sandra's avatar

I feel so seen right now. Went through something similar. I idealized cigarettes and smoking and as recently as last year, with the coming of spring, I thought : "ohmygod i need a cigarette" with a smile on my face. It's because I've associated cigarettes to rebellion and freedom. I almost made it cinematic, like a coming of age movie. I realized that I wanted to smoke just so that I could feel like I have the freedom to smoke. Thing is, it doesn't hit like it did when I was 16 lmao. Right now freedom is actually being able to do a full hike without getting too out of breath, something impossible for a smoker.

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JESYCU's avatar

hell hell hell yes

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nikebia's avatar

thanks for the invite to the conceptual smoke

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Isabella's avatar

My yearly cycle of vice is the opposite - I always feel the urge to smoke in the summer, especially on holiday. Not usually a smoker, but I'm capable of chain-smoking sat at a cafe outside in the summer heat. It's something I'll continue to allow myself once in a while, despite the stupidity of it. There is nothing like smoking to make me feel present, confident, and world-wise - the last of which I am most certainly not

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Isabel R's avatar

the cigarette makes it special. My vice is things feeling special so I’m working on my relationship with the regular >:)

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pissgirlpanties's avatar

I bought a 10 pack of Canadian cigarettes when I was in Toronto, the one's with the hilariously horrible graphics of gum disease and throat cancer on the boxes. Passed them out to my friends who did smoke, kept a few for myself. I don't know what my goal was or is, maybe just to be comical. Maybe, like you said, to find God. who tf knows.

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JESYCU's avatar

collector's item! i find the packaging on those so satisfying- i would legit buy one just to display it in my bedroom as if it was a rare baseball card or something lol

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cath_art_ic's avatar

this conceptual smoke felt like a soft stab to the spleen, i undeniably enjoyed it

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glo <3's avatar

my vice is smoking/vaping. im glad u tried it and it grossed u out, for me it was the opposite sadly.

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Lauren <3's avatar

Omg my gosh, this was so good. I was unsure what to expect when first reading this, and I am delighted and grateful that I took the time to read this. I enjoyed your perception with some images of what you believed the habit and ritual to be as a whole and through fictional characters! I clicked the link for this from your October favorites video! Can't wait to read what is next!!

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carol's avatar

i am begging you to publish a book

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annaka guerrero's avatar

boy did I feel seen from the moment I started reading and it just kept going

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aya's avatar

I LOVE UR MIND WOW

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Snappy Turtle's avatar

I too, crave a cigarette every now and then. The smell stops me every time.

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