Hilarious, poignant. A bit of virtue signaling that u threw ur butt in the trash can and didn’t just flick it on the street like an Neanderthal but I’ll let it pass
the other week, at my big age of 28, it randomly dawned on me that absolutely nothing was stopping me from going to buy a pack of ciggies. I filed away the realisation for later - for when I felt like I reaaalllly needed a drag. but erm, this post sobered me up good.
I feel so seen right now. Went through something similar. I idealized cigarettes and smoking and as recently as last year, with the coming of spring, I thought : "ohmygod i need a cigarette" with a smile on my face. It's because I've associated cigarettes to rebellion and freedom. I almost made it cinematic, like a coming of age movie. I realized that I wanted to smoke just so that I could feel like I have the freedom to smoke. Thing is, it doesn't hit like it did when I was 16 lmao. Right now freedom is actually being able to do a full hike without getting too out of breath, something impossible for a smoker.
My yearly cycle of vice is the opposite - I always feel the urge to smoke in the summer, especially on holiday. Not usually a smoker, but I'm capable of chain-smoking sat at a cafe outside in the summer heat. It's something I'll continue to allow myself once in a while, despite the stupidity of it. There is nothing like smoking to make me feel present, confident, and world-wise - the last of which I am most certainly not
I bought a 10 pack of Canadian cigarettes when I was in Toronto, the one's with the hilariously horrible graphics of gum disease and throat cancer on the boxes. Passed them out to my friends who did smoke, kept a few for myself. I don't know what my goal was or is, maybe just to be comical. Maybe, like you said, to find God. who tf knows.
collector's item! i find the packaging on those so satisfying- i would legit buy one just to display it in my bedroom as if it was a rare baseball card or something lol
Omg my gosh, this was so good. I was unsure what to expect when first reading this, and I am delighted and grateful that I took the time to read this. I enjoyed your perception with some images of what you believed the habit and ritual to be as a whole and through fictional characters! I clicked the link for this from your October favorites video! Can't wait to read what is next!!
i would read an entire book written like this. my yearly vice is an unrequited crush 😌
the things i would do for an unrequited crush... i would sell the clothes off my back
want one of mine?
Hilarious, poignant. A bit of virtue signaling that u threw ur butt in the trash can and didn’t just flick it on the street like an Neanderthal but I’ll let it pass
I constantly say: ‘God, I need a smoke’ knowing damn well if I tried I would hate it lol
something 2 take the edge off...
the other week, at my big age of 28, it randomly dawned on me that absolutely nothing was stopping me from going to buy a pack of ciggies. I filed away the realisation for later - for when I felt like I reaaalllly needed a drag. but erm, this post sobered me up good.
the day i buy an entire PACK of cigarettes is the day my loved ones should do a wellness check on me
I feel so seen right now. Went through something similar. I idealized cigarettes and smoking and as recently as last year, with the coming of spring, I thought : "ohmygod i need a cigarette" with a smile on my face. It's because I've associated cigarettes to rebellion and freedom. I almost made it cinematic, like a coming of age movie. I realized that I wanted to smoke just so that I could feel like I have the freedom to smoke. Thing is, it doesn't hit like it did when I was 16 lmao. Right now freedom is actually being able to do a full hike without getting too out of breath, something impossible for a smoker.
hell hell hell yes
thanks for the invite to the conceptual smoke
My yearly cycle of vice is the opposite - I always feel the urge to smoke in the summer, especially on holiday. Not usually a smoker, but I'm capable of chain-smoking sat at a cafe outside in the summer heat. It's something I'll continue to allow myself once in a while, despite the stupidity of it. There is nothing like smoking to make me feel present, confident, and world-wise - the last of which I am most certainly not
the cigarette makes it special. My vice is things feeling special so I’m working on my relationship with the regular >:)
I bought a 10 pack of Canadian cigarettes when I was in Toronto, the one's with the hilariously horrible graphics of gum disease and throat cancer on the boxes. Passed them out to my friends who did smoke, kept a few for myself. I don't know what my goal was or is, maybe just to be comical. Maybe, like you said, to find God. who tf knows.
collector's item! i find the packaging on those so satisfying- i would legit buy one just to display it in my bedroom as if it was a rare baseball card or something lol
this conceptual smoke felt like a soft stab to the spleen, i undeniably enjoyed it
my vice is smoking/vaping. im glad u tried it and it grossed u out, for me it was the opposite sadly.
Omg my gosh, this was so good. I was unsure what to expect when first reading this, and I am delighted and grateful that I took the time to read this. I enjoyed your perception with some images of what you believed the habit and ritual to be as a whole and through fictional characters! I clicked the link for this from your October favorites video! Can't wait to read what is next!!
i am begging you to publish a book
boy did I feel seen from the moment I started reading and it just kept going
I LOVE UR MIND WOW
I too, crave a cigarette every now and then. The smell stops me every time.